I just want to start off by saying I apologize for not posting a blog in a bit, the devil has been working heavy, so I've been focused on home and prayer, but God is good and faithful! I'll share everything that had happened in another blog.
That's exactly what I want to focus on in this blog, the goodness of God, especially in my life! I am so, SO thankful that the Lord met me where I was at in life and has sought me through like His word states. The Lord has been having me focus on what is blocking me and He's brought me to understand it all stems from my childhood. Personally, I was traumatized at a young age, and I never knew Jesus in truth, I didn't even believe God was real until four years ago and I just accepted Jesus as my Lord and Saviour and received deliverance six months ago. Through personal experience I have come to understand that I have built strongholds in my mind in which I've used to basically to just survive living in this world and for this world, unknowingly. Thinking it's "just the way I am", but that's a lie from the devil! We all thrive to heal from the trauma's life has thrown are way, but a lot of us, including myself at one point, try to avoid the situations, block the pain or situation so we just don't have to deal with it for a moment. It's really an unhealthy way of living and I know I am not the only who feels this way. Speaking from experience and guidance from the Lord, to heal is to face it. Face what hurts you, what bothers you. Let yourself grieve, for me I cry. I let myself feel the hurt, but I let myself be lifted up by the word of God as well. I still get up every day knowing IT CAN and WILL change because I've been working so hard and that I HAVE changed from where I use to be. I don't allow being down and defeated, the place that I stay! God doesn't want us perfect, pretending as if nothing is bothering us. Stop telling people "I'm fine" when in fact you're not! You're broken, you're hurting, you're confused, angry! ALLOW YOURSELF TO FEEL IT and call upon Jesus! Read your Bible, connect to those in Christ you can trust. Understand that NOTHING lasts forever, that pain CAN BE GONE, and JESUS is the one who can set you free! A lot of times people think things need to happen instantaneously with God, sure HE CAN, but the fact we are sinners, the Lord has to test our faith. He's like, "yeah, you say you believe, but your life and choices say otherwise, actions speaker louder than words." It's like believing only because those around us believe and or tell us too or being raised up from birth. We have to WANT to seek the Lord in all truth for him to even begin to help us heal, it's a process, as is building a relationship with Jesus, which is key to overcome and truly heal and not avoid what triggers us. It doesn't happen in one day, as nothing good in life just happens without hard work and dedication. To know we are truly healed is when the situation and issue no longer trigger us. You're able to face it but walk entirely different without negative feelings, or tears of hurt. These types of blockages that we tend to do to make ourselves feel okay and just get by day by day are instilled from childhood. Break those strongholds with changing the way you think, if you feed into negativity, you'll be negative, but if you think positive, differently than you would before, things in life will then become more positive, easier in a sense. You don't find yourself as stressed or as worried even if new issues arise. I humbly ask you to pray and ask the Lord to reveal to you what, when, where and why the trigger happened and process it. The Lord will help you with the process as we each require different things in this life. Learn to forgive, let go, walk freely in the mighty name of Jesus! I can sit here in confidence and testify that I can truly speak on situations that I use to keep hidden or things I was even in denial about without feeling anger, ashamed, or bitter and lately not even sad. It hasn't been easy, but I have trusted in the Lord! To know He is faithful and that His word will never come back void. GOD IS SO GOOD, so patient and so, SO loving! I don't deserve anything He's helped me through, especially in these last four years. I wasn't even looking for HIM I was just looking for HELP and He came in on my behalf and has patiently guided me to where I am today, and I still have work to do and He's STILL here! It all starts with Jesus, and it all ends with Jesus! God can change anything meant for evil and turn into good to be used for His glory, so please just stop running and start standing up, find the firm foundation to stand on; Jesus Christ IS the rock and refuge! Prayer is the answer! He's always there to comfort us, He's always near to the brokenhearted. Call out to Jesus, you aren't waiting on Him, He's waiting on YOU! Don't you want to feel joy again, happiness, comfort, to TRUST in someone again?! To learn to stop letting the choices of others affect you. I am here for anyone that needs someone to talk too, you don't have to be alone in wanting change, especially if no one around you does. I've been there and I genuinely care! I thank you so much for reading, I will be back with updates more frequently, the devil will not stop me in the mighty name of Jesus! Amen.
* (I thank you, Holy Spirit, for pushing me to get a blog out despite all the devils thrown my way recently. I pray for more focus and motivation to stay on track with my goals and helping others for the Kingdom in Jesus mighty name! I love you; I cherish you; I THANK YOU, LORD! Amen!) *
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